I have lost my mind.
I dumped all of my hormones into the toilet and flushed them.
I cut all of my hair off.
I hate how I feel. My emotions are so unstable right now that I can't tell if I want to hug you or stab you in the face. When I am alone, my thoughts turn to terrible things. My stress and anxiety levels are skyrocketing.
Why am I cursed?
Why does gender impact me so much? What happened to me to cause this? I want to be normal again, but feel as though "normal" is lightyears away at this point. Is there some place where I can just be happy? I don't care if I am male or female. I just want peace.
Change is never easy. It is the most difficult thing to accomplish because it's human nature to fear the unknown. The fact that you have gone as far as you have shows you have more courage than anyone I know. Keep being as strong as you have been and know that everyone loves and supports you a great deal, no matter how confused you feel.
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